i PASSED! a huuggeee load has been lifted off my back. i feel like i just pooped out 15 pounds of shit. RELIEVED.
it is absolutely the most horrible gut wrenching feeling when you have to wait hours to take your skills test!
here's how it works:
you're assigned an instructor and a number. 10-12 students per teacher and half and hour per student for 2 skills. i was number 10! it's terrible. on one hand you think "ok i have so much time to study" but at the same time you're so damn nervous you can't eat you can't think you can't study anything else you want to shit and pee every 10 minutes and you're just waiting and waiting all the while watching students come out and announcing they failed.
i waited and waited and stressed and pooped and cried before my turn.

the worst thing about it is that no matter how often you practiced at the skills lab, how well you did everything, how long you went over and over and over in your head and telling yourself you got it, the minute you walk into the room your heart completely drops. you forget all you've learned and you can't remember the next step as you're performing the procedure. i had already accepted my fate:FAIL!

HONESTLY. i have nooo idea how i passed. i screwed up so many times and kept forgetting. but everytime, i would catch myself and say it. i guess acknowledging your mistakes is a good thing.
my teacher must have been so tired and forgot how much i messed up because she said "alright.. well you passed". wow. really? thaaaaaaankkkk the Lord! i don't have to remediate.

alright. well 2 tests down. 1 to go.

gotta poop!

-abigail

3 major tests this week! PLEASE LET ME PASS.

I had an interview on Friday to be a student nurse worker at LAC-USC. I can't believe I almost chickened out on going just because I hate interviews. Why do I get SO nervous!? And why do I also fear public speaking? I don't think of myself as a shy person but when it comes to these things I freak out.
Interview went really well and I basically got the job. What sucks though is I probably won't start until end of October or beginning of November due to the budget crisis. Damn you, economy.

I only work once a week at It's a Grind. Paycheck was 100 dollasss. I know that's not a lot but i'm actually happy with that considering i work ONCE a week at a really easy job. Hopefully when I start working at the hospital i'll be rolllliiinnn with the cash monay!

I hung out with my aunt at shoreline in downtown Long Beach the other night. I was walking on the pier and saw the Hyatt Regency Hotel across the way and thought about my debut (bc that's where i celebrated it) and I can't believe that was 3 years ago! I am SO OLD. I know i'm not thaaat old but wow time flys by so quickly. Before you know it i'll be married with 8 kids (a set of twins and a set of sextuples juuusst like jon and kate). I need to go out and do more. Explore. Discover. Learn (besides nursing stuff). Meet people. I don't want to look back and realize all i did during these years of my life was study.

Can't wait for winter break!
I want to go/do any of these.
-Snow? Big Bear? I haven't been in SO LONG!
-Las Vegas?? Now that i'm 21, sounds like it would be fun. I used to HATE vegas.
-San Fran? i missss it there.
-Road trip? even though i get horrible car sickness.

Who knows if I'll end up doing anything. I would love to though! I never had a summer break. So i gotta LIVE IT UP in winter. yea?

-abigail

I'm obsessing over the idea of going to Kenya next summer. ooooooooh how baaaaadly i want to go. One of the clinical instructors at my school sometimes takes students to Kenya (where she's from) over the summer for a couple weeks to visit the hospitals, see how things run there, volunteer, etc. I want to go! I've always wanted to go to Africa to do some type of volunteer work. It has been one of my goals for a very long time now to go there. Volunteer. Work. Help. Somehow be a part of making a difference there. Somehow. Some way. This is my chance!
I've brought the idea up to my parents and of course they don't see how me going to Africa is a good idea. UGH. "it's not safe there. it's diseased. there's conflict. you'll catch malaria. you're an easy target" and as my mom likes to say "there are bad elements (in a very filipino fobby accent)" WHAT? what the hell do you even mean by that. bad elements? ok.
YES. i DO see their point. But come ooooooooonn. I HAVE to go. I would absolutely love it. To experience a completely different culture. Actually be there. Be with the people. See how differently they live their lives. It would be absolutely amazing. Ugh.. i can dream.

Oh. 2,000 dollar plane ticket. UGH. I'm never going to go. =(

I suck at keeping my posts up to date. But here I am once again.
I'm already two weeks in to school. Oh what a longgg 16 weeks left this will be.
Did I already mention I passed my two summer classes? THANK GOD.
I refuse to re-take them with the already hectic schedule I have this semester.
Also, we're only allowed one fail before getting kicked out of the program. WHEW.
oh yeah.few pics from bday!

Monday night pre-bday din din at Yardhouse
















Florentine's at Downtown Fullerton
















My hottest picture ever
















Manning up
















Hollywood Bowl
















Gay clubbing at Tigerheat
















Yeap.
So Aimee left for Germany! She's actually there already. HI AIMEE! So sad. It's strange that I won't see her until December. Aww. I shall miss her and our food outtings. I'm glad I got to hang out with her a lot this summer! Even though she worked literally 5 days a week from 9-5 like a real grownup does. Booooo. I will be so bored. I'm so jealous she gets to study in Europe! What an amazing experience that will be. Stupid nursing doesn't have study abroad programs. Wait.. there's actually one school..in MICHIGAN that offers it. Lame.
Few pics from her going away party
































































Random old picture of the day:
















ahahaha. during aimee's debut practice back in 2005. Why am I an easter egg???

-Abigail

I'm 21! Have I actually been alive for that long? So weird to think about.
Birthday week started off last Thursday at Tigerheat. Had a blast and i'm now obsessed with the gay community. It was Danity Kane night and Aundrea and Shannon stopped by. Danny Noriega was there too. I love celebrity spottings.

Monday had dinner at the Yardhouse. I felt sick all day and threw up my whole meal in their restroom. I must have been pregnant with a food baby.

Tuesday was the actual day of my birth and I had breakfast with the family. Julian came over and made me some amazing crepes. I'm really craving some right now. When am i not?
At night i went to Downtown Fullerton with chris, aimee, ev, and cboo. Who knew that place was hip and happenin' on Tuesday nights? I can't believe i can legally drink now. No more cool underage drinking. As if i ever really did that anyway. But that was such a fun night. Drinking. Dancing. Friends. Music. Molcasalsa afterwards. yum. i'm hungry.

Wednesday was recovery day. Except I couldn't sleep in. Stupid school registration and review classes. I have no idea what i did the rest of the day. Sleep probably.

Couldn't sleep in Thursday either. Work. Then Julian came over and he bought me a tennis racket. I LOVE watching tennis.. but we figured out that day that its much harder to play than it looks. We hung out and went to the Hollywood Bowl that night to see the Los Angeles PhilHarmonic(?) Orchestra play. It was really nice.

Friday was a bust. I was hoping to end birthday week with a good fun night but everything seemed to go wrong. I mentioned to my parents I had an expired license and they got all crazy and kept reminding me how irresponsible I am and wouldnt let me drive until I went to the DMV to get a temporary license but no one would drive me. Julian came over to drive me and we waited in line to get in. THANK GOD we barely made it in though. They took my picture and i'm pretty sure i'm going to look like an ex-con. I was NOT prepared to take a new picture. And I had planned to go to Oiwake's that night but I wasn't even sure if Julian or Bianca could get in and then I didn't know who was going and some people couldnt go and if I told my parents i was going out they'd be all WELL YOU'RE IRRESPONSIBLE. blah blah blah. I'm 21 dammit.
Actually the day didn't turn out as bad as i thought. I went with Julian to LB and we checked out his new house and I'm really excited about it. The house looks like its straight from the 70s and I'm excited to help decorate..if i can. We bought thai food to go..ate in and watched a movie.

I spent today watching 8 hours of Weeds. And now i'm hungry.

Pictures tomorrow?

-Abigail

I can finally breathe for a little bit. Summer school is over AT LAST and I just found out I passed both classes. After taking my final (which kicked my ass) I could only think about if I passed or not. I was so nervous. Whew! I'm ok now.

It's my only week of summer and it just happens to be my birthday week and i'm feeling like shit. Why why why why why do I have to be sick? I have absolutely no appetite, my skin feels clammy, and i'm aching all over. This is no way to spend my birthday. my 21st! Blah blah blaaaaaaah.

I'm going to get some rest.

-Abigail

I've been loading my body with tons and tons of caffeine these last few days due to the crazy amount of time i spent studying. I needed it. However, I absolutely hate the whole jittery, jumpy, and shaky side effects it has on me. Not to mention it makes me want to use the bathroom almost 15 times a day..literally. Thank goodness for coffee shops that don't require keys to use the restroom!

My eye is healing! Birthday week is still on!
-Abigail