I realize that whenever something stresses me out the way i handle it is by trying not to think about it which is pretty stupid I guess since it really doesn't fix the problem.
My laptop decided to get all cray cray on me and there was no way I could even get to the desktop to attempt to fix it. I noticed a few problems such as constant pop ups and how it started to run slower awhile ago I decided to ignore it... until finally it just crashed.
And of course I had absolutely nothing backed up. I started to freak out because my whole life (aka pictures and schoolwork) was all in there.
Me being completely computer retarded had no idea what to do. I couldn't even think of any possible problems and any possible solutions. ughh.
Thankfully Julian is the best and helped me out, except I had to wait a whole week because he was back home. So i spent about 100 bucks on an external hardrive and used a different program to back up all my shit. Thank the LAWD it was still all there.

So.. i think i know what my new years resolution is going to be..
I would like to try to be more tech saavy. Shit, or at least somewhat more knowledgeable on computers. Hopefully this way I can avoid problems or at least learn to fix them on my own. Oh, and to not avoid problems thinking it will fix itself on its own.

OH. i got an 84 out of 100. BALLLAA! wow i really sound braggy. i'm sorry really. im not usually. it was just a very exciting day. k bye. why am i writing in this like an instant message.
PEACE

How could i forget to mention that the last few weeks before school ended i studied my ASSSSS off! OH. because that's my life ALL the time.
The night before my final i stayed at the USC library until 12am to study. got home and studied for two more hours. woke up at 4 to study and got to school by 6:30 to study until 9:30. took the damn final AT LAST and thought i was going to shit in my pants bc it was the hardest test i'd ever taken. 100 questions.
Waited around bc they said the results would be ready in two hours. ate at little tokyo with a buncha people and had cold sake for the first time. shitty. got to school and waited a billion more hours. FINALLY they call out our names and WTF. I was worried about not even passing the class and instead i raised my grade from a C to a B! ARE YOU SERIOUS? everyone prays to just get by with a C. C=RN. lol. ok i really don't mean to sound like i'm bragging but i was seeerriously in disbelief! ahhhhh. and now i can relax. and i haaave been. love it. OH I LOVE BREAK.

i think i may part ways with blogspot soon.

I absolutely LOVE winter break! It's such a strange feeling to not have to worry about studying. I almost feel useless. I'd like to feel this way forever!

I've done so much more these last 5 days of break than i did all semester long. And it's not that i've been out doing crazy things and traveling the world or anything. I've just not been couped up in my room or at a borders or barnes and noble stressing my brains out about the next quiz or test. It's wonderful.

Aimee's back from Germany! Yay! I think i've seen her everyday of my break. I'm so excited she's back. Now i have friends to play with.

I'm just going to list what i've done (mostly for the purpose of me remembering what i did winter break). nothing exciting really.

Thursday- IAG Christmas party at a korean karaoke place. Best night ever! i LOVE the IAG crew!

Friday- Party at Diva's

Saturday- Ra Sushi bar in Torrance with Aimee

Sunday- I don't remember... ugh. what the hell did i do?

Monday- LA/Arclight with Julian to see Slumdog Millionaire. Amazing! one of my new fav movies for suuure!

Tuesday- Downtown Fullerton with Aimee

Wednesday- Nothing really. helped make yummy ceviche with my mom!

Lame entry. I'll post a more meaningful one with pics later.

Ugh. EXTREME information overload.
it goes in and immediately goes out of my brain.

I'm so damn ADD right now. I need to focus. I need to study.
I've noticed that i've become a coffee drinker these last few weeks.
I don't even like coffee (funny that i work at a coffee shop) and i don't
even really know if it does anything for me.
It takes me about 1-2 minutes to finish a cup. I'm not one of those that
enjoys their coffee and take sips of it here and there. I gulp it. Really.
And the reason i do it is to avoid the taste in my mouth. That's what she said!
oh how i love myself... ha jk.

I saw the movie chang-a-lang (lol. aka "Changeling") and it's really great!
Very very interesting and great acting. Anyone see it?
Definitely went in a direction i totally didn't expect. It kind of freaked me out..
Anyways. Go see it. Hmm.. now that i'm really thinking about it.. why is it called Changeling?
Did i miss something!?

Went to the LA light show with Christine, Saena, and Vince last night.
Definitely wasn't as cool as it sounds.
First we kept getting lost. Oh vince, what an asian driver.
Then we get there and we get on a really smelly shady looking prison bus
thinking it's going to take us to where we need to be. Little did we know that
while we were in there, the whole time we were experiencing the "light show"
Basically you look outside and there are displays of christmas themed lights..
Lasted about 3 min. And on the way back to the parking (where the bus picked us up)
it took maybe 20 min. HOW?I don't know.
It's ok. We ate Denny's afterwards and the seasoned french fries made the night
10 times better. How i love potatoes...

Good luck on Finals!
winter break! you're just around the corner!

-Abbie

SO OVER SCHOOL.

Warning: This entry describes very gross material
i watched a creepy hippie-porno-like video on vaginal births the other day... (no, not for my own pleasure but for clinicals)
basically the point of watching it was just to see a different take on the way people viewed/performed/delivered a baby.
THERE ARE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE WHAT HAPPENED IN THIS VIDEO. i really don't even know what to say. oh if only you could watch it...

highlights
-first of all it was from the 70s (and this was not animated or a re-enactment) HIPPIES. EVERYONE.
-no one wore gloves (touching the vagina and baby and placenta and ALL with bare hands. wtf)
-everyone had really long hair that was not tied back (easily could have touched places it should not be touching)
-the husband was in there and while the woman is literally laying there with her legs wide opened, naked, baby trying to come out, she and her husband start "smooching" (aka making out wtf)
and the midwiveS(multiple) are stimulating the woman's nipples (biggest nipples i've ever seen!)
-woman kept saying "oh baby, oh baby" while looking at her husband
-more that i can't remember or most likely just trying to block out of my memory for good

AHHH. ok so i guess there ARE words to describe what i saw in this video.. but OMG. AH. Definitely a different take on it!

Ok, so you kind of understand why the hell they're doing that: arousal and stimulation of the woman(nipples) can help start uterine contractions. Which is a good thing..needed for the baby to be delivered.. Yeah i won't go into detail. I just had to share. Weirdest video ever.
I think i'd rather watch real porn. NOT. Keepin it PG!

-abbie

TERENCE! LOL. YOU LOVE ME

Note to self: don't wait until you completely run out of underwear to finally do the laundry. undie-less is NOT cute/comfortable.

it's been a good and bad for day weekend. good because i had no school on thursday, it was turkey day and i had lootttsss of mashed potatoes. CARBS! my weakness, went to a free metrostation show in LA on friday night, palapas in dt fullerton/in n out/hangout at mike's on saturday night, lots of time for napping and laziness!
bad because of all the napping and laziness when i should have been studying for my finals that i have in two weeks! yes i need to start early! it may seem like that's enough time when in fact it ISN'T. so much material to study. ahhh. brain explosion!




















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Happy Thanksgiving to all who read my blog! (Ha..two or three people. Hi!)

I love the feeling of a holiday. I don't know why. Makes me all warm and tingly inside(that's what she said!) Christmas time is coming up! Meaning winter break is just around the corner. Can you tell I'm really anxious for it to come? I talk about the coming of break every blog. But this semester is HELL. gotta get out and get it done and over with already.

Yesterday I observed/helped with a vaginal delivery. YES. i was face to vagina. Ok not literally but i was RIGHT THERE. I had to help hold my patient's legs back and up to open up her pelvic cavity because her baby was pretty big. I'm sure you're thinking "wow that's fucking gross", and yeah.. i guess it kind of is. Bloody and not sexy at all but it was absolutely amazing. Really! I just couldn't believe it. Conception and the whole giving birth is truly a miracle. It's so unbelievable, right? Of course we understand exactly how it happens and the smallest details of how it all occurs. but WOW. ah. I can't even describe how it makes me feel. Oh, the wonders of life...

Ok but also. Watching how painful and excruciting it probably was made me not want to have babies anymore. At least not 8. OUCH. And i just think to myself "how the HELL is THAT going to come out of ME..my you know what". OUCH.

oh. and i also got to play with the placenta.. haha.

I watched Girl, Interrupted last night! Pretty good movie. I really enjoy movies that take place in some kind of psych institution type of setting. Can't wait to work in the psych ward next semester.

alright! poop time.

Less than a month away until winter break!
I just need to make it through school these last few weeks. ughhh.

So i found out that the trip to Africa that i'm dying to go to will cost.. oh.. well you know..
only 4,000 dollars! YEAH. okay. Like i can really afford that? I work once a week at basically a minimum wage job. NO WAY i can afford that. And my parents already don't support my wanting to go so they definitely won't help with the funding. SO SO SO SO sad.. i feel so heartbroken about it. It really has been a dream of mine for awhile now to go. But i shouldn't be too sad about it. I'm definitely going when i graduate. I can't wait to be a travel nurse for while!

This time next year i'll be getting ready to graduate! I'm extremely excited to be an RN. Really. This is truly what I want to do for the rest of my life.. well of course I eventually want to become a Nurse Practitioner.. but i truly LOVE what i do! I have finally started to feel a lot more comfortable and more confident in working with patients. It's such a good feeling when i'm working with patients and start to use what i've been learning in class. Before nursing classes and all, just taking the G.E's and what not it's just like ughh why am i even learning this? i'm NEVER going to use this information really. But now I always think to myself "oh wow i know exactly why this is happening.. i know this disease's causes and treatments" etc. etc. And i feel really great when I can actually teach my patients useful information. haha. i feel like a nurse! It's so much fun. And i know i constantly complain and bitch about how much studying i have to do and yada yada yada but it's really really fun too. I can't wait to be making my own $$$$$. holler!

Last week i watched House Bunny at the dollar theatre. Hilarious!
Friday i saw Twilight. It was pretty good. Definitely wasn't absolutely amazed by it or anything but it was enjoyable. Makes me want to read to book which is apparently alllll the rage right now. Oooohhh if only i had time for leisure reading. ha!
Friday i also watched the first Harry Potter movie. I've never seen it before! Everyone is so tiny! I liked it and decided to rent the second one the next day. I still have to finish it though. The trailer to The Blood Prince really got me excited so that's why i randomly decided to start watching the movies.

It's so strange that Thanksgiving is in 4 days. And before you know it, it's going to be Christmas! Life is just going by sooo quickly. I don't want to be old!

-Abbie

I feel very bloated.

on tuesday i decided to finally do something to my hair. i didn't want to cut it anymore because i love the length so i thought maybe i'd dye it. i decided to get highlights under my hair. underlights? anyways i didn't want to get a whole lot just a few here and there and under my bangs. i was going for a blonde color. i also told her exactly what i didn't want. no hint of orange or yellow or copper or bronze or brass. HA. the lady said she knew exactly what i wanted to i trusted her. she proceeded to dye my hair. which took forever i dont know why. then dry it which also took forever. and whenever she would check on the color she's put more dye because it wouldnt come out. i was doing that for 2 hours. UGH. then she washes my hair. i look at the mirror and i'm absolutely horrified. it was yellow. bright yellow. and i was like is this the color??? and she said oh i'm going to tone it down. so i was alright but really irritated that it was taking forever. i was at the sink with her washing and re-dying my hair for another hour. strained neck pissed off. hungry. tired. needing to pee.
FINALLY. we went back to the chair and she asked if i wanted a cut. i said no. maybe a small trim. then. she spend half an hour doing what? cutting and layering my hair. WTF. i told her not to do that shit. i'm so pissed at this point. AND not to mention my hair color. omg. my bangs were a different color from the rest of the highlights which were all diffferent colors from each other. brown. yellow. orange. copper. OMGGGGGGGGG. i left pissed off. i threw a tantrum as i was driving home. really.
ugh i was so mad. people said it looked fine and they liked it. i know they were lying! it was horrible.

yesterday i went back and made them fix it. it's now more of an ashy brown/blonde. a million times better than before thank god. i'm really happy about it. but still pissed that my hair is shorter and thinner. i miss my long black hair..

ok thats all. this entry is dumb.

-abbie

Last two weeks have been pretty rough. School, life, and more life and more school. Test after test after test and just a mix of all these different emotions.
It's so damn draining. Winter break where art thou!

Yesterday was Halloween and it's the first time I didn't go trick-or-treating. I woke up at 4:15 in the morning to get ready for work and Rahn wanted us to be playboy bunnies. Ugh. She even made the outfits which surprisingly came out pretty good. Who knew she could be so crafty?
Well that was alright. HA. I got asked out by a customer! A cross eyed black guy.. I always try to avoid this guy because apparently he asks people when i work or whatever. Creep! I don't even know his name..
I was making bagels and he's standing by the counter asking what time I get off. I say "oh at 12 it's not too bad of a shift it's pretty cool" (me thinking he was just asking how many hours i work that day) and he's like "ooh well you know I was wondering.. would you like to have breakfast with me after work? just over here at the INTERNATIONAL HOUSE OF PANCAKES". and in my head i'm like.. isn't that..IHOP? ha! Why did he have to make it sound all fancy n shit? oh man And i'm like "oh well actually i'm having lunch with desiree today" "oh ok well how about another time? tomorrow, next week?". So i'm like uhhh "well you know we really can't go out with customers. We could really get in trouble" and he says "Well if you don't tell, I won't tell" (superrr creeepy like) and i just laugh and i say i'm really sorry but i can't... I don't know why i didnt just say i had a boyfriend. That would have made it a lot easier. oh my.

Last night i went to Hard with Julian. SO MUCH FUN. I dressed like Katy Perry, or well i wore a Katy inspired outfit i suppose. Kinda just came up with whatevz. We drove there and there was a shit load of cars and people all over the streets. Took awhile to finally get parked. And then we saw the line and it was maaasssiivee. i was like what the hell we're never getting in. And this thing is outdoors so you can see the stage and lights and all these people that were already in. Torture! Julian and i decided to cut a billion people thank god. good thing we werent a huge group. He went.. then I came 5 min later (that's what she said! ha that was a good one!!). Even after getting tix at willcall we had to wait in yet another line that literally move 1 foot every 10 minutes. A big giant crowd just trying to get in. we waited maybe an hour and at last we were in. So exciting. I've never really been to anything like this before and I had the best time ever! 4 stages and many many people playing. Got to see crystal castles, DJ AM, boys noize, amongst others. Didn't see Justice or Soulwax though.. boooo!!! it's ok. still sooo fun. Can I just say that watching people on E is the grossest thing ever? Or at least the couples that do it. EWWW. They truly have no shame. VOMIT. VOMIT. haha. Well we did lots of dancing and walking and searching for people. so fun. definitely want to go again.































































-Abbie!

i'm fat and lazy.
all i want to do is eat. sleep. shop.

i started my pediatrics and obstetrics rotation this week. i'm so excited to be working with kids! they're so adorable! 9 weeks left. hurry up winter break.. pleeeaaseee.

i don't like getting too into my personal life on blogs and whatnot but all i have to say is that this whole break thing makes me feel so strange. and weird. and sad. and bitter. but at the same time it gives me a chance to do whatever i want.

i talk to aimee practically everyday online/skype. actually, i literally talk to her every single day haha. can't wait for her to get back. we've been talking about different things we want to do over winter break. now that we're 21 we should be able to do a looot more. woo hoo.

blah. life is busy. everyone is busy. i never go out or do anything or talk to anyone really. boooooooringggggggg. save me.

i knew that this time would eventually come.
eventually i would have liked to be on my own and experience life without being in a committed relationship. i'm young right? i need that.

i guess i just didn't expect it to be so soon. now. when i was completely happy with how everything was going.

but really there is no right time to do this. it would suck no matter when that time came.

you know what pisses me off? dry, cracked lips.
and what pisses me off even more than that is being allergic to chapstick.
and even mooooooreee than that is only being able to use only one kind of lip moisturizer (for BABIES) that actually works for me and going into a million stores only to find out they no longer sell it.

I AM DYING.

argh. my boss wants us to dress up as playboy bunnies on halloween. i happen to be opening that morning. is she crazy? she is seriously using us as an excuse to dress that way to work. crazy korean lady!

-dying abbie

wooooo. caffeine high! body is still so awake and fidgety but my mind is exhausted!

what strange weather. Yesterday i woke up to cool, crisp air. What fall should really feel like.
And today I awoke to icky slightly warm air. Blah. I'm ready to bundle up in layers and layers of clothing during the day and ready to use my mexican blanket at night.

finally got a new phone! my old phone was literally missing its face. super fug. now i have the samsung blackjack II! and even though i don't use the web features or anything i still lovesss it.

9 weeks down, 9 weeks to go! it's going by so quickly yet so slowly at the same time. wow by this time next year i'll be almost ready to graduate and become a full on registered nurse. *ughhhhh. the thought just gave me the heebie jeebies!

-abigail

how is it that there is so much to learn about life, this world, universe, EVERYTHING and no time in a single person's lifetime to discover it all. it would take a million lifetimes to learn about it all and a million more just to understand it. ooooooohhh man. this is so overwhelming.

even just looking at that picture up there i'm so amazed. and it's just a picture. i can't even fathom what it would be like to see it right in front of me. in space! ahhhhh. my head is going crazy!

some people are just so damn condescending!
but why? assholes.

i feel so weird right now. like i can't breathe. and at the same time i'm concentrating on my breathing like i have to constantly control it. you know what i mean? like when you start think about your blinking and it doesn't come naturally anymore. anyways. i don't know. i think i might be really stressed out. or maybe my shorts are on too tight.

-abbie

i PASSED! a huuggeee load has been lifted off my back. i feel like i just pooped out 15 pounds of shit. RELIEVED.
it is absolutely the most horrible gut wrenching feeling when you have to wait hours to take your skills test!
here's how it works:
you're assigned an instructor and a number. 10-12 students per teacher and half and hour per student for 2 skills. i was number 10! it's terrible. on one hand you think "ok i have so much time to study" but at the same time you're so damn nervous you can't eat you can't think you can't study anything else you want to shit and pee every 10 minutes and you're just waiting and waiting all the while watching students come out and announcing they failed.
i waited and waited and stressed and pooped and cried before my turn.

the worst thing about it is that no matter how often you practiced at the skills lab, how well you did everything, how long you went over and over and over in your head and telling yourself you got it, the minute you walk into the room your heart completely drops. you forget all you've learned and you can't remember the next step as you're performing the procedure. i had already accepted my fate:FAIL!

HONESTLY. i have nooo idea how i passed. i screwed up so many times and kept forgetting. but everytime, i would catch myself and say it. i guess acknowledging your mistakes is a good thing.
my teacher must have been so tired and forgot how much i messed up because she said "alright.. well you passed". wow. really? thaaaaaaankkkk the Lord! i don't have to remediate.

alright. well 2 tests down. 1 to go.

gotta poop!

-abigail

3 major tests this week! PLEASE LET ME PASS.

I had an interview on Friday to be a student nurse worker at LAC-USC. I can't believe I almost chickened out on going just because I hate interviews. Why do I get SO nervous!? And why do I also fear public speaking? I don't think of myself as a shy person but when it comes to these things I freak out.
Interview went really well and I basically got the job. What sucks though is I probably won't start until end of October or beginning of November due to the budget crisis. Damn you, economy.

I only work once a week at It's a Grind. Paycheck was 100 dollasss. I know that's not a lot but i'm actually happy with that considering i work ONCE a week at a really easy job. Hopefully when I start working at the hospital i'll be rolllliiinnn with the cash monay!

I hung out with my aunt at shoreline in downtown Long Beach the other night. I was walking on the pier and saw the Hyatt Regency Hotel across the way and thought about my debut (bc that's where i celebrated it) and I can't believe that was 3 years ago! I am SO OLD. I know i'm not thaaat old but wow time flys by so quickly. Before you know it i'll be married with 8 kids (a set of twins and a set of sextuples juuusst like jon and kate). I need to go out and do more. Explore. Discover. Learn (besides nursing stuff). Meet people. I don't want to look back and realize all i did during these years of my life was study.

Can't wait for winter break!
I want to go/do any of these.
-Snow? Big Bear? I haven't been in SO LONG!
-Las Vegas?? Now that i'm 21, sounds like it would be fun. I used to HATE vegas.
-San Fran? i missss it there.
-Road trip? even though i get horrible car sickness.

Who knows if I'll end up doing anything. I would love to though! I never had a summer break. So i gotta LIVE IT UP in winter. yea?

-abigail

I'm obsessing over the idea of going to Kenya next summer. ooooooooh how baaaaadly i want to go. One of the clinical instructors at my school sometimes takes students to Kenya (where she's from) over the summer for a couple weeks to visit the hospitals, see how things run there, volunteer, etc. I want to go! I've always wanted to go to Africa to do some type of volunteer work. It has been one of my goals for a very long time now to go there. Volunteer. Work. Help. Somehow be a part of making a difference there. Somehow. Some way. This is my chance!
I've brought the idea up to my parents and of course they don't see how me going to Africa is a good idea. UGH. "it's not safe there. it's diseased. there's conflict. you'll catch malaria. you're an easy target" and as my mom likes to say "there are bad elements (in a very filipino fobby accent)" WHAT? what the hell do you even mean by that. bad elements? ok.
YES. i DO see their point. But come ooooooooonn. I HAVE to go. I would absolutely love it. To experience a completely different culture. Actually be there. Be with the people. See how differently they live their lives. It would be absolutely amazing. Ugh.. i can dream.

Oh. 2,000 dollar plane ticket. UGH. I'm never going to go. =(

I suck at keeping my posts up to date. But here I am once again.
I'm already two weeks in to school. Oh what a longgg 16 weeks left this will be.
Did I already mention I passed my two summer classes? THANK GOD.
I refuse to re-take them with the already hectic schedule I have this semester.
Also, we're only allowed one fail before getting kicked out of the program. WHEW.
oh yeah.few pics from bday!

Monday night pre-bday din din at Yardhouse
















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Hollywood Bowl
















Gay clubbing at Tigerheat
















Yeap.
So Aimee left for Germany! She's actually there already. HI AIMEE! So sad. It's strange that I won't see her until December. Aww. I shall miss her and our food outtings. I'm glad I got to hang out with her a lot this summer! Even though she worked literally 5 days a week from 9-5 like a real grownup does. Booooo. I will be so bored. I'm so jealous she gets to study in Europe! What an amazing experience that will be. Stupid nursing doesn't have study abroad programs. Wait.. there's actually one school..in MICHIGAN that offers it. Lame.
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Random old picture of the day:
















ahahaha. during aimee's debut practice back in 2005. Why am I an easter egg???

-Abigail

I'm 21! Have I actually been alive for that long? So weird to think about.
Birthday week started off last Thursday at Tigerheat. Had a blast and i'm now obsessed with the gay community. It was Danity Kane night and Aundrea and Shannon stopped by. Danny Noriega was there too. I love celebrity spottings.

Monday had dinner at the Yardhouse. I felt sick all day and threw up my whole meal in their restroom. I must have been pregnant with a food baby.

Tuesday was the actual day of my birth and I had breakfast with the family. Julian came over and made me some amazing crepes. I'm really craving some right now. When am i not?
At night i went to Downtown Fullerton with chris, aimee, ev, and cboo. Who knew that place was hip and happenin' on Tuesday nights? I can't believe i can legally drink now. No more cool underage drinking. As if i ever really did that anyway. But that was such a fun night. Drinking. Dancing. Friends. Music. Molcasalsa afterwards. yum. i'm hungry.

Wednesday was recovery day. Except I couldn't sleep in. Stupid school registration and review classes. I have no idea what i did the rest of the day. Sleep probably.

Couldn't sleep in Thursday either. Work. Then Julian came over and he bought me a tennis racket. I LOVE watching tennis.. but we figured out that day that its much harder to play than it looks. We hung out and went to the Hollywood Bowl that night to see the Los Angeles PhilHarmonic(?) Orchestra play. It was really nice.

Friday was a bust. I was hoping to end birthday week with a good fun night but everything seemed to go wrong. I mentioned to my parents I had an expired license and they got all crazy and kept reminding me how irresponsible I am and wouldnt let me drive until I went to the DMV to get a temporary license but no one would drive me. Julian came over to drive me and we waited in line to get in. THANK GOD we barely made it in though. They took my picture and i'm pretty sure i'm going to look like an ex-con. I was NOT prepared to take a new picture. And I had planned to go to Oiwake's that night but I wasn't even sure if Julian or Bianca could get in and then I didn't know who was going and some people couldnt go and if I told my parents i was going out they'd be all WELL YOU'RE IRRESPONSIBLE. blah blah blah. I'm 21 dammit.
Actually the day didn't turn out as bad as i thought. I went with Julian to LB and we checked out his new house and I'm really excited about it. The house looks like its straight from the 70s and I'm excited to help decorate..if i can. We bought thai food to go..ate in and watched a movie.

I spent today watching 8 hours of Weeds. And now i'm hungry.

Pictures tomorrow?

-Abigail

I can finally breathe for a little bit. Summer school is over AT LAST and I just found out I passed both classes. After taking my final (which kicked my ass) I could only think about if I passed or not. I was so nervous. Whew! I'm ok now.

It's my only week of summer and it just happens to be my birthday week and i'm feeling like shit. Why why why why why do I have to be sick? I have absolutely no appetite, my skin feels clammy, and i'm aching all over. This is no way to spend my birthday. my 21st! Blah blah blaaaaaaah.

I'm going to get some rest.

-Abigail

I've been loading my body with tons and tons of caffeine these last few days due to the crazy amount of time i spent studying. I needed it. However, I absolutely hate the whole jittery, jumpy, and shaky side effects it has on me. Not to mention it makes me want to use the bathroom almost 15 times a day..literally. Thank goodness for coffee shops that don't require keys to use the restroom!

My eye is healing! Birthday week is still on!
-Abigail

I should really start blogging more. Because now I can't remember what has happened since the last time I wrote.

It's finals week! Fiiiinally. I'm so exhausted. So so so so exhausted. These last 3 or 4 weeks I have been studying non stop every chance I get. Driving back and forth from home to Long Beach or LA to meet with people. These next few days I'll be up by 4am and studying at starbucks in LA by 5:30am till... ALL DAY. Bring me some love.

My immune system is shutting down on me due to stress and lack of sleep.

And of course now that my 21st birthday is coming up my body decides to get and eye infection and make me sick and i'm aching all over. tiiireedd. Perfect timing. UGH.

I'm not in the mood to post pictures. Blah.

-Abigail

Since the beginning of the year I've constantly debated whether or not I should cut my hair. Sometimes I love the way it is and other times i want to chop it all off. It took forever to grow but then I started to miss when it was short.
Well now I've decided I like the length and i'm keeping it like this. NOW my problem is whether or not I should dye it. I just want something different. If I dye it and hate it I could always go back to black in an instant. But do I want to waste my time and money doing it if I'm just going to possibly dye it back? ALSO. Last time I colored my hair it turned orange after a week. It was so dumb.
This is such a hard decision. This blog entry is stupid. Help.

Even with the average 5-6 hours of studying everyday, it's actually starting to feel like summer.
I've finally started putting my bike to use! Thankfully Mike fixed my breaks for me or I'm sure I would have gotten run over by now. Vince and I have been biking quite a lot and even though our destination is always less than 1 mile away it's still a lot of fun. My goal is to be able to bike to Crepes de Paris on Birch street! When will I achieve that goal? Probably more than a year from now. Ha.

Julian and I went to see The Dark Knight Thursday night for the 9:30 pre-showing at the Arclight Theatre in LA. It was my first time and I love it there. It's so nice and I was able to get away from the rowdy crowds for once. The movie was absolutely amazing! It's really very sad that Heath Ledger has passed away. He was incredible.

Yesterday I tagged along with Bianca to the Santa Monica Pier so she could get extra credit for going to the mini aquarium they had there. It took forever to find parking and we ended up finding a spot pretty far away. Since we only had an hour to get there and back we booked it! The aquarium was actually really cute and interesting and we got to touch some starfish. After that we realized we wouldn't make it to the car on time so we rented bikes for 6 dollars to get back faster. We put in another hour and used the bikes for awhile since we payed for them anyway and just cruised along the beach. Returned the bikes and walked the long way back to the car again. It was a lot of fun!

I have been spending so much money on anything and everything unnecessary. Mainly food and clothes. I need my paycheck to come in NOW. This is getting ridiculous. I need to start saving up.

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-Abigail

School sucks. You'd think that taking two classes and only having to go once a week during the summer would be easy breezy. NOPE. It sucks. Already I'm struggling to just pass one of the classes (yes, with a C. UGH). It doesn't help at all that I missed a 5% quiz while I was in Costa Rica. DILEMMA: Should I continue taking the class and risk failing so I don't have to take it next semester or should I withdraw now (knowing what i'll be getting myself into and not miss any quizzes) and try to work harder during fall even though on top of that class I'll be taking 2 more nursing classes? I'm only allowed two fails before getting kicked out of the program. Hate my life.

A couple interesting work stories.
1) I'm at the register and a woman orders. "6.78 is the total" i say. I stick my hand out and she starts counting change and putting coins in my hand. While she continues searching for more coins in her purse I notice she managed to include a pube with the coins. WHAT THE HELL. At first I really did not want to pick it up (even though my other hand was already touching it) but I also didn't want her to see it and start to feel awkward which would then make me feel even moooore awkward so i decided to quickly flick it off before she saw. SO GROSS.
2) Not as interesting but some punk ass kid tried to steal our tip money. Just because we have our backs turned to kindly get you some water even though you didn't purchase anything else doesn't mean our boss in the back who is watching the store via cameras can't see you. All of a sudden i hear the back swinging door slam and her yelling "PUT THAT BACK IN THERE". The stupid kid had the nerve to tell us that he was putting money IN our jar. OK. So why was he getting all crazy and yelling like a mad man. Actually, like a guilty dumbass. She told him to get out and never come back and he threw his water cup at our door. The popo came and we reported him. Asshole.

Tonight Jackie and I took a Tahitian dance class for the first time. It was a lot of fun and I'm going to start going every week. Already my arms feel 10 times buffer. So exciting!

I want to take up more and more hobbies this summer. Guitar, tennis, volleyball, etc. I'm feeling good!
-Abigail

These last few days have been pretty good. A couple blogs back I was so complain-y and I apologize. I get kind of crazy when I have nothing to do and start to act like alllll my days are so lame. But they're not as bad as I make it seem.
I went to Main Street in Hungtington Beach the other day with Julian and I decided it's kind of boring. I guess i'm just not that into all the surf shops, beach cruisers, and hot bodied bikini wearing people. However I did get excited when I heard someone saying "free passes to a new Michael Cera movie tomorrow". Most definitely jumped on that.
We tried a new Peruvian restaurant here by my house called "Mario's Peruvian Seafood Restaurant". Go and try it! Moderate pricing but very yummy. Looking at it from the outside you may think you're about to walk into a Marie Calendar's but I assure you there is nothing Marie Calendars-like about the food.

So the movie screening showed yesterday and I went with Bianca, Aimee, and Julian. Thank God we got there a little earlier or we would have all been sitting in separate seats. Movie is called "Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist". Super cute movie that i'm sure i could and would watch over and over again. Definitely on my top picks.

-Abigail

Today I went with Julian, Jole, and Kevin to the LA Film Festival in Westwood Village, LA. We went to see the movie Journey to the Center of the Earth starring Brendan Fraser (where has he BEEN these last few..many years!?). We got there and there was a red carpet and everything. I didn't know this was going to be an actual "World Premiere". There were quite a few celebrities, possible z listers or maybe just new up and coming celebs. I had no idea who 90% of them were but everyone else knew their names and they posed for the cameras so i took pictures of them anyway. I easily get star strucked.







I hate that I'm not famous! Someone discover me! and my lack of talents..





Quick picture recap of the day:

READ PREVIOUS BLOG BEFORE READING THIS ONE.
YES i JUST blogged but i came across this entry from my Lj from 4 years ago around this same exact time. SEE. This is why I miss highschool and higschool summer vacations.
June 26, 2004
i haven't updated in awhile. my computer has been retarded. i am at aimee's right now and we're bumming around... hmm so what has been going on...
-finished community service... i kinda miss all the old people we were working with. they were really funny. but i don't miss all the files we had to erase, the grafitti we had to wash off, and the stupid room we had to clean. -started working at the hospital...fun fun fun. it's very exciting i love it. i feel all special and stuff.
-started surfing on thursday. ahhh soo much fun. and me and bianca were pretty damn good for beginners. i love surfing. i'm gonna go pro. haha i wish.
-i chopped off my hair!!!! ahhh. it's up to my shoulders now. and i have bangs. i kinda miss my hair but i like my hair now too. whatever
-hmmm. what else.. i've been hanging out with aimee and bianca mostly. just renting movies and going out. we're bums. -yesterday i went to jackie's ave star. she did so incredibly wonderful! i am so proud! she was definitely MY favorite. awww i love her mucho. GREEEEEAT job my dear!
-today hung out with aimee and bianca. went to the mall. bought a skirt now we're at aimee's and we're gonna eat. yah i'm going to mexico on tuesday and then we're sleeping in san diego that night. woo hoo! who wants to come with me!! that's about it i think. i've like done something everyday since summer started. i love having stuff to do for summer. it's wonderful <333 style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" size="2">Pictures from that SD trip:




























******EDIT! actually these pictures aren't from that trip I was talking about. Wrong year. But still nice to look at!


"that's about it i think. i've like done something everyday since summer started. i love having stuff to do for summer. it's wonderful"

How ironic. Right now i'm experiencing the complete opposite. WAH WAH. I'm such a baby. I swear I'm not this pathetic all the time. Just now. I'm bored.

I feel like I'm having some kind of mid mid-life crisis. Real mid life crises happen around 40-50 years old right? Well I'm halfway there so a "mid" mid life crisis.
Just to be sure the term mid life crisis (isn't it annoying when people use the same words or phrases in multiple sentences? I've already used mid life crisis three times since I started this blog today and now it is four. Just to annoy you. kidding.) means what i think it means i decided to look it up on good ol' wikipedia. Such a trusty source! ha.

Midlife crisis is a term used in Western Societies to describe a period of dramatic self-doubt that is felt by some individuals in the "middle years" of life, as a result of sensing the passing of youth and the imminence of old age. Sometimes, transitions experienced in these years, such as aging in general, menopause, the death of parents, or children leaving home, can trigger such a crisis. The result may be a desire to make significant changes in core aspects of day to day life or situation, such as in career, marriage, or romantic relationships.

The whole part with the menopause and the children leaving home doesn't exactly reply...

I don't know why I feel so weird about growing up. I'm graduating college next year and soon after that I'll be a nurse? Like a FULL BLOWN nurse. REALLY? It's so strange. On one hand I'll feel too young to actually have a career... the kind that you work your ass off to finally get into. But at the same time I feel so old. I find myself talking about kids in high school these days and saying things like "She's 10 and she has a cell phone? PSH. I never got one of those till I was a sophomore" and "Why aren't these kids at home. I was never allowed to go out this late". Man. I'm old. I want to be 18 again. and forever.

Maybe I just need more excitement in my life. I really think I feel this way because I get bored SO easily. When I'm not doing anything I start to get all these weird feelings. Everyone is so busy these days! And that's good for them but I need people to hang out with! Don't I sound pathetic...YES. Aimee and Bianca are both working internships all the time and that's exciting for them. They need that kind of experience before getting a real job. I wish I needed to do something like that to at least keep me busy. At least I have Julian. But he lives so far. YES. Huntington Beach is now considered far from me considering the price of gas these days. Thanks Ju for always driving to La mirada <3

Blah blah. This is getting to start sounding like my posts during the livejournal days. Sorry! But i was BORED! and I needed a break from studying.

Last thought: I FEEL SO FAT. Must go to the gym more often.

Random video of the day:

Hahaha! How old is this?

Who even reads this blog!? No one I'm sure.
I'm too lazy to upload more pictures so this is all i'll post.

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Has it already been a month since I started summer? Wow. Besides my trip to Costa Rica I haven't done a whole lot. School keeps me busy, i guess.

I took Julian to get his very first manicure (just a cut and clean, no nailpolish! I'd feel a little weird about that..) yesterday and he totally loves it. I'm sure he won't admit to people that he went to get his "nails did" but it's true. I paid for it.

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This picture was taken sometime February 2006! Check out my hair!
I think my next blog will be about my different hair phases.

-Abigail

Costa Rica was amazing! I miss it already. The weather was much nicer there than it is here. The flight there wasn't too bad. It took about 5 hours. We got to the hotel/resort at 7am and the receptionist was extremely rude! "No rooms available until 3pm". WHAT. What are we supposed to do for 8 hours? "I guess you have to find something to do". There was no welcome, no orientation, NOTHING. She finally told us we could have breakfast there so we did. The place is huge so we had to take small shuttles to different areas there. We ate and pretty much did nothing but walk around until my mom complained and they gave us a room to "relax" in. After that first day everything went well. We did a lot of activities and just really had a great time.

What i did!
-Zip lining through the jungle
-1600 ft. waterslide down the mountain
-Horseback riding through the mountain
-Mud bath
-Hot water springs
-Hiking through Rincon de la Vieja and seeing fumaroles
-Boat ride through the river and seeing monkeys, birds, crocs, etc. etc. etc.
-Snorkeling in several spots in the Pacific Ocean
-Lots of eating (i seriously ate rice and beans with every single meal)
-Watch the Lakers get massacred by the Celtics (saddest game EVER)
-2 Yoga classes that they offered there. One class was just me and the teacher. Private lessons!
-Hung out at the wet bar

I have a bajillion pictures that i will post later!

-Abbie

I started summer school on Thursday and I hate it already. Who doesn't hate having a day of school take up your summer days? I'm just glad my school load won't be as heavy during the fall semester. I was looking through the syllabus and saw that we have debates towards the end of the session. UGH. I absolutely hate and dread debates! I've already had one horrible and absolutely embarrassing experience! WHY WHY WHY. I thought those days were over. Of course not. Debates will haunt me once again.

I'll try not to think of all the stress i'll be experiencing this summer, at least not for another week, since i'll be going to Costa Rica tomorrow! I'm super excited! Gotta start packing!

-Abigail

I took the metro line for the first time yesterday! Julian and I decided to go to North Hollywood for the day to hang out. The metro is actually pretty exciting. I don't know why but it makes me feel "cool". It took about an hour to get there but that's how long it would have taken if we drove, but with the metro we..
1. Saved gas (and $)
2. Didn't have to worry about traffic
3. Didn't have to worry about possibly getting into an accident (something I worry about ALL the time whenever there's bumper to bumper type traffic)
4. Had no worries about where to park
5. Got to experience the METRO. Woo hoo!

It's $5.00 for an all day pass, although it used to be $3.00. It's not too bad! Technically you don't have to buy a ticket because they don't always check but you're fined $500.00 if they happen to check for tickets that day and you don't have one. Your choice. Are you willing to risk paying that much money? I'm not!

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Overall, it was a fun day!

-Abbie